At some point of time in our lives we face a situation where we feel disappointed with ourselves. It may lead to regret or it may lead to anger, depending on the problem at hand. The kind of disappointment which i'm facing, leads to anger. And i don't intend to keep it that way.

First off, let me talk about my gaming habits. I've been gaming ever since i was in secondary 3 which has been close to 4 years now. The first online game i ever played was MapleStory and though many of my friends disapprove of this game, it does have it's good points sometimes. Then two years following that my sister-in-law bought me Warcraft III: The Frozen Throne. That was when i picked up DotA(Defence of the Ancients). And i've been playing it ever since even though i quit maple just around the end of last year.

This is going to be DotA talk for awhile so kindly excuse my language

Even though i've been playing DotA for close to a year now, i haven't really founf a hero which i could master. I mean, i've tried different hero's from strength to agility and even intelligence but to no avail. Just a few hours ago i was playing in a clan match and my score was 3-5. It's utterly disappointing and i feel so degraded. I've spent hours playing almost everyday and yet my skill has only imporved to the bare minimum. It really pisses me off when i think about the amount of time i spent playing dota and my inability to even come up with a decent score. Maybe it's because i keep jumping hero's which is why i'm not focusing enough on one particular hero to understand that hero inside out. Maybe, just maybe i really should focus on one hero alone. Then my skill would really improve for the better.

Enough about DotA for now, i'm going to blog about another type of disappointment that i'm facing. Disappointment in my peers.

Just a few hours ago someone just literally pissed me off, big time. I'm not going to name that person but i think she knows who she is. It's like, i've already trusted her with stuff, seeing as she is a person with responsibility and will uphold her pride and ego. That is, until just now. Not that it matters or anything but i was feeling bored yesterday so i decided to reinstall maple to poke around abit to see how my friends were doing inside. But it just so happens that most of my items were with one of my friends conveiniently forgot the password to her account. Since she told me that she had forgotten it i asked her to find out for me, thinking that she would try her best. However, the following day when i asked her again, i got the exact same reply that i got the previous night and she had the gall to tell me not to pester her about it any longer. That was the line that was the final straw. How could you be so IRRESPONSIBLE. I lent you my items thinking that since i wasn't playing i could just lend them to you so that you could use them HOPING that when i needed them in the future you would return them to me. But today i've seen it all. IRREPONSIBILITY is the proper word to be used here. If this is the thanks i get for helping you out then you're not very much welcome. This is what i say to people like you. PISS OFF. It might not matter to you that i'm angry. You'd probably be just laughing it off without a care in the world. You know what? go ahead cause i don't give much of a shit either.

In any case, i got what i wanted to off my chest. I'm going to bed. Hopefully the anger doesn't kill me.