Super tiring day. Really tiring. Both physically and emotionally. ok lets talk about Friday first.

FRIDAY

Went to school and skipped both lectures to watch Blades Of Glory with Cal. Very very hilarious show, i reccommend anyone who loves comedy to go watch it. We were laughing out asses off in there. Thankfully the cinema wasn't too crowded or we would have disturbed everyone. haha.

After that took a bus home and rested for awhile. Apparently i rested for too long and overslept. Woke up, took a bath and headed to Funan to meet Leo. But before that since i had plenty of time to kill decided to walk around funan to check out any good stuff i could buy to use(eg:speaker or mouse). Then went to look for him at 6+, sat down and he treated me to a drink whch he owed me for a damn long time. It tasted damn weird because it was hot fudge at the bottom with very very very bland coffee in the middle and a scoop of ice cream on the top. It looked nice when it was first put on my table my god was it hard to drink. Whenever i tried to push the ice cream down the coffee would threaten to overflow my table =.=. Anyway sat there and chatted with him as he worked till about 9 then Joel came. It was really really boring sitting there cause there was literally nothing to do. I should have brought my laptop with me then at least i could play DotA haha. So waited till 10 when he knocked off. Then headed to look for food but everywhere was closed!! ZOMFG.Met up with Hyde before we walked all the way to the MacDonalds opposite Carlton hotel and had our 'meal' there. Then we went to play overnight LAN at IRC which was at peninsula plaza opposite funan. It was okay on the whole because at least we enjoyed ourselves. But because there were 4 people it was difficult to get a game for all 4 of us because if one left all other 3 would as well which would spoil the game. Played till 7 then decided to call it a day/night and head home. Hyde left early as he was super tired and urgently needed sleep. Poor guy already had is energy drained in the morning because of his training and he had to endure the overnight LAN lol. So Joel n Leo and myself headed to Mac's again to have their breakfast.Turned out to be very nice ^^V. THen took a bus home and K.O-ed on the bed after my bath till about 5pm then woke up and here i am =)

i thought u were out of my mind.
i thought u were out of my heart.
turns out after what happened.
i guess you've already made ur place inside it.





so true lol.



I always stare at that letter that you wrote me. Thinking that, wow i never knew one could love another so much.After these past few weeks i begin to realise that you've really changed. You're not the person that you used to be.I'm starting to love spending time with you and even a short conversation on the phone keeps me happy for the night.But now, i'm scared, scared that something might happen, something that i've been dreading all along.

I'm afraid of losing you.

When you're gone, there will be no one there. No one there to hold my hand when i'm alone, no one to hug me when i'm feeling cold and need some warmth, no one to share all the things that happen to me in my life. I feel so lost.I don't know what to do anymore. Every night i go to sleep with the thought of you in my mind, every day without you is like an entire day without food. I'm on the verge of crying now, i feel like shit knowing that there's nothing that i can do about it but sit patiently and wait for the day that you will sit beside me and tell me that everything is okay now. Then and only then will i feel at ease.

Occasionally i would open up the email that you sent me, reading through it and the only thought that goes through my mind is that i have never regretted giving you another chance. You've really changed. And i'm loving every bit of it. I'm not blaming you for what is going on now, because it is not your fault. The one to be blamed is that fucking son of a bitch who wants to break us apart. Even though you assure me that you will not spend time with him there is no doubt that he will try his very best to get close to you.

Like now, it's 7.00pm and here i am typing this with a broken heart while you're happily playing games of Rabbit vs Sheep with him, both of you enjoying yourselves with not a care in the world. I can't tear myself away from the fact that he still likes you despite the letter that you wrote him telling him that you only want him as a friend. It's not as easy as it seems.


I've been through what he has, it's something called unrequitted love. The girl i secretly admired for over a month went and got herslef attached one fine night, the minute i found out i couldn't stop blaming myself for not admitting to her that i really liked her. But i persisted, hoping that one day she would leave that guy. Eventually she did, but i didn't make my move. Why? because i realised that our friendship would change if we would have gone into a relationship.

Even though it's not really related, i fairly know how a guy feels when he realises that the girl he is madly in love with is attached. His heart will burn with the passion to make her feel that he can love and care for her more than her current beau. Now you're playing DotA with him, i feel so upset but yet i hold my tongue, because i don't want you to think that i am controlling your life like a puppet on strings.

I have a million words that i could use to describe how i'm feeling right now. But i don't think being emotional would be the right thing to do right now.

Something hits my heart real hard when i always read the email you sent me.ANd i will always hold that sentence close to my heart. Though i don't know if you do remember but i can't help but drop a tear everytime i read it. It goes something like this,


"You know what i'll wish for if i had one wish now ? I wish that you'll be there to grow up with me happily."


Love is such a complicated thing, it can make us happy or it can take away that happiness and turn it into one of the worst things we can ever experience. I sometimes pray that everything will be alright in time to come. And i hope that whoever is up there will answer my prayers. There's nothing that i can do, it's not as if i can possibly beat him till he can't even walk.That would be just inhuman. But i just want to let you know that whatever your decision may be. I will respect that decision and that you will have my blessings as much as it aches my heart to do so. I shall end here.

I love you my darling.No matter what happens my heart will always be with you.



I just hate people who discriminate. Even though it's not racial discrimination i still hate it all the same. Discrimination by talent and skill in a certain field is just as bad. Just because the bunch of you are from the same secondary school doesn't give you the right to push those who aren't aside. Our clan motto already states that we are a family. We are UNITED. But i don't seem to see the unity. I've done so much for the clan. Sacrifing most of my time to try to organise outings and etc etc. But when i have a very very simple request to just play in a clan match you all refuse. Why? Because you all think i'm too noobish to be a part of the team. Well if you think that way then why even invite me into the clan in the first place? I've had enough of the remarks you make. So what if i'm made out to be a petty person? Ask yourself would you like it if people made use of you and only called for your help when you needed it? If it wasn't for me HALF the people who went for the outings wouldn't even BE there. I'm not asking for gratitute. I'm asking for a little respect. I'm a human being. I too have feelings. No one likes to be made use of. But to hell with it. I don't think i wanna give a shit anymore. Please don't include me in futute clan outings, overnight LAN, friendly clan matches etc etc because i've had enough. Piss off. t(-_-t)



Now enough flaming.Lets talk about my weekend shall we?


FRIDAY

Didn't go to school in the morning cause i had a major bad flu that didn't seem to want to go away until late in the afternoon after a couple of cold tablets, some vitamin C and a few good hours of sleep.

Dear came over and we checked out the movie timings and realised there was a slot at GV Max at Vivo City at 2.40 pm. Luckily we made it in time but we had to take side seats because all the centre seats were taken. BOO. But the show was fantastic nonetheless. Yet another successful release from Marvel. It was well worth my money, even though much of the storyline didn't make much sense to me. It was jumping back and forth between Peter taking revenge on his uncle's killer and the feud between him and Harry Osborn because of Norman Osborn's death which Harry convieniently blamed on Peter even though he did not have concrete evidence.

The special effects for Venom was cool. I bet they must have spent hundres and thousands. BUT I WANT CARNAGE. CARNAGE IS EVEN BETTER. *whines*



see see?? SO COOL =x


Oh well. Anyway after the movie dear and I walked around Vivo and onto the top floor where they was the view of Sentosa. We sat and talked for awhile then we cam-whored. Pictures i'll post here. i think. Depending if i have the mood.xD

Then we walked somemore and OMFG i saw the doughnut shop that was at Raffles City basement that time i went out with Jie for dinner which had a queue of like 4324235324253 people. ZZZOMFG I AM SO GOING BACK THERE NEXT WEEK AND GORGE MYSELF WITH THEM. =x

Anyway saturday and sunday was the usual. Just slacking at home and whatnot. School week begins tomorrow. BOREDOM. Wish it was the holidays again. But when i'm having holidays i wish there was school. Oh such a fickle way the human mind thinks.

Cal introduced me to this site on Thursday in class. Its a blog made by 3 authors who despise those fucking posers who like to type LiKe ThIs and who always talk like wut deyy saee iish berii speeciial. rofl. I'm no good at typing like that but you get the picture. Anyway here's the link, its really funny so if you have time i suggest you take a gander at it.



Well i'm off to bed. But before that lets put up the pictures!(haha so i DID have the mood xD)







p.s: seriously this is the FIRST and LAST time i'll ever do that pose >.<
p.p.s: Cal stop laughing =.="



right. i'm outta here. *poofs*