i laughed till i cried wheni watched this video. Enjoy!



What happened to the good old days where it just used to be me, my games and my music? All gone i suppose. Been wondering what i've been doing over the past few months with my life. I missed the days in secondary school where life was just simply to attend school daily and reach home and face the computer to play games non-stop till it was time to go to bed.

But now it's a totally different story.

I've got commitments i need to fufill. Things that i'm EXPECTED to do every now and then. I don't evenhave time for myself anymore. Timethat i just want to spend alone. Stress-free, without a care in the world. I really don't know what i've become. A member of the painstaking retribution all humans recieve called real life? Have i really succumbed to this state of mind? I'm really confused at the same time frustrated. I don't evenhave time for myself now with al the projects and whatnot. Maybe oneday i might just isolate myself from the entire world so that i can have time for myself. Or i could always drop one or two commitments that i have. Then and maybe then will i ever have time for myself.

Until then... i'm as screwed as eveyone else.





Just bought the book on Tuesday. About 700 pages worth of content and cost nearly $50 dollars. Sad to hear however that this is the last of the entire series of 7 books. But as they say, all good things ust come to an end. Went with Cal down to orchard to collect it because i pre-ordered it like ages ago. After that we walked all the way down orchard road and we laughed like crazy. Talked about some girl stuff and i found out abit about his past relationship and he found out more about my previous experiences with relationships. Felt better talking to him. I think that my life is revolved around myself only. Sometimes i wonder if i'm prepared for a relationship. THis could be the reason why parent's keep advising their children that they are not yet emotionally and mentally prepared for a relationship because we can't set our priorities straight. Like say for example you already planned to have a good rest over the weekend at home because of the huge pile of projects that have beenbeating you down over the past week. But to your dismay your other half wants to go out with you. Part of you tells your your inner self that you should cancel the date and stay home instead while the other half tells you to hell with it and just get it over with. Sometimes in a relationship we tend to care about our partner more than we care about ourselves.

But i don't think i would be in a position to talk about relationships, seeing as i'm not a professional heart consultant. But i want to tell this to all the single guys out there, if you ever meet the perfect girl even though she may not be the girl that you have dreamed of but somewhat close to that then i advise you to wait it out till the perfect moment. Rushing into the relationship will only cause complications and future misunderstandings. Be friends and slowly progress from there. Because nothing compares to the power of love like the power of friendship. =)

I LOVE DOING MY PROJECTS SO MUCH HAHAHA fuck them. -.-"

p.s: jie,if you ever read this, i hope ur ok in Yunnan. Really miss you. Take care



I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too [x3]
John Mayer-Daughters

I love this song. Lots of meaning. Oh and this too.

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Melswee, i'm sure that there's someone out there who will make everything in your life fit into place. Until then, just hang on =)



I've been having wierd dreams lately. REALLY wierd. wierd in a sense that i don't think these dreams should come into my mind at all. Though i feel happy, when i wake up it just doesn't feel right anymore. I wonder if i'll have another dream tonight. Lets see.

Was supposed to go to school earlier on so i was contesting with myself whether or not i could resist the temptationto skip school. Alas, i gave in to temptation itself and slept on.

Woke up at 2pm with nothing much to do. Just lazed around and played a few games. No movies to watch so far. Watched transformers with Cal on Tuesday cause we had 4 hours of break. And that can really be a drag if you don't have anything to do. The show was nice. A little too much movement if you ask me. One can't really focus on what is going on during the fighting scenes because the robots themselves move so fast and the camera can only shoot that much. What i'm trying to say is that if you want to shoot a fast-paced action movie at least make the robots smaller so we can focus on what their doing. I don't even know when they're punching each other cause all i see is a heap of metal colliding into each other. But it was a really cool movie.

Side note: PROJECTS!!!!!!!!



This world is full of it. You can't trust anyone but yourself. How would you ever know that the person you trust most would hide something that u absolutely dislike from you and you wouldn't have known if it wasn't for one of your online friends who told you because he overheard their conversation?

It just sucks to win the 'Jackass of the year' award without even knowing how or why u won it.

I mean, who likes things to be hidden from them. I'm sure that the person whom you could trust completely would definately not hide anything from you right? I guess i found out that you can't really trust anyone, not even your loved ones. Because they too tend to hide things from you as well.

I'm not upset about the fact that the event actually took place, i'm upset that you actually lied to me that you were out with someone else when you were actually out with him. So what if you promised him? You promised me alot of things too. I don't see you fufilling them. The fact that you actually don't even feel remorse about this whole incident hurts even more.There are so many people around me who were against me getting back with you a few months ago. I wouldn't say so many, i would say almost EVERYONE. But i went against them and took my chances. In the end the shit that i had to deal with became worse. Why is it that you always take advatage of the things that people give you and only when drastic measures have been taken that you actually come to your seneses and fucking wake up? I asked 3 people for advice yesterday. And they all replied me with the exact same answer.

You're just too immature. You don't know what love is.AND YOU'RE STILL A KID.

If you knew what love is you wouldn't hide things from me. You would think of how i would feel when eventually i found out. But you didn't. Don't give me the bullshit that you kept it from me because i would react differently. That's pure excuses. You knew it was wrong that's why you kept it from me and even lied to me about it. Throughout the period of time we were together i have never told you a single lie or kept any secrets from you. But yesterday what i saw astounded me.

You just don't know how deeply you've hurt me.You just think everything's ok. Thats how an immature mind thinks. Well so be it.