Two more weeks.. and the start of a new semester begins. Haven't been up to much during the school holidays. 6 weeks spent mostly at home, sometimes outside. Either watching a movie or playing LAN. TRIED to find a job but to no avail so i pretty much gave up during the third week of the holidays.

Don't really know what i'm trying to do with my life. Just yesterday i met up with Joel at Far East to shop for a pouch he wanted to buy to carry his PSP but couldn't find a suitable one. Anyway after walking the whole of Orchard road we decided to head home and Joel suggested crashing at my place cause he was on the verge of fainting form fatigue. So we sat at the void deck the block opposite my place thinking of a valid excuse which my mom sould believe. But we ended up having a heart to heart talk about stuff that revolved around our personal lives. It feels so good to have someone to talk to when you have lots of problems cooped up inside.

Anyway that aside, my mom allowed him to spend the night here and we spent half the night surfing Friendster looking at pictures of long lost friends wondering how they were. Then came across this girl that Joel liked who was from his class. Till today i still can't fathom why he doesn't want to ask her out or even at the very least spend time with her. But i guess different people would have different approaches to talk to a girl.

Did nothing much after that. Played DotA until 5am then slept till 3pm the next day(Well at least i did =x). Woke up, changed and headed to Dhoby Ghaut to play some LAN before heading our seperate ways.

Frankly speaking i enjoyed that heart-to-heart talk we had. He told me things about his personal life and i told him stuff about my personal life. I was offered suggestions and took them into consideration. Anyway i was feeling a little down so telling him what i was upset about pretty much lightened my burden.

Sometimes what we need isn't a little time alone, but just someone to talk to. It doesn't have to be your other half but just someone who would listen and approve when it's right and disagree when it's not. I consider myself lucky to have 2 of these guardian angels beside me. Cal and Joel, i don't know what my life would be like without the both of you. Probably would be a total wreakage if i didn't have you two to talk to. Therefore i dedicate this entry to both of you. These two may not be the people who can change your life, but they can spare that few seconds or minutes of their time to listen and offer advice when needed.And that's what i really need. Love you guys(Brotherly love please. -_-")

At the end of the day, it's the choices that we make that affect our everyday lives. If we sit back and hope that our lives will just go as planned then that's where nothing will happen at all. We are given the power to change our lives and live them the way we want to, not to think that everything has already been planned for us and to sit back and wait for stuff to happens to us.

If you think that keeping things to yourself will help then so be it. It's not as easy as that to just say that telling people your problems will not change anything. True it won't change anything. But the person whom you tell could be the one who offers you that bit of advice and moral support for YOU to make that change. Don't expect others to change your life for you. Get up and do it yourself. Like the saying goes: If you want something done, DO IT YOURSELF. If all you're going to do is just sit there and cry every night because you have so many problems and there's no one listening then it's about time you do something about it. Don't ask what, because only you know the answer to that. No one else can help you if you don't want to help yourself. Unless you do something about it, it's going to stay the way it is and things won't get any better for you.