Sunday, June 29
I'm at my wits end
I need a new layout. Spongebob is boring me. (edit: ok i got it =x)
Went to exchange my external hard disk today, they said they would send a new one to me in the next 7-10 days. All my data gone -.- . I can't even back it up in my computer because i can't access it. I can't believed i got fooled into buying such a ridiculous hard disk. All their bullshit about push one button to back up all your files. I just want something that works like a freaking thumbdrive for god's sake. Not a bloody pandora's box that i can't even open properly without losing my cool. Damn it.
I have two things that i'm confused about. The first is kinda personal so i'd prefer not to let the entire world know about it. The second is which instrument i wanna learn. By right i already decided on learning the classical guitar, but today when i went down to Yamaha at Plaza Sing and heard the lady at the piano testing it out, my mind suddenly didn't want to play guitar so much anymore.
It was the most peaceful thing i've ever heard. So calm, so serene. It was as though i could just close my eyes and imagine the most beautiful setting . After listening to her song piece i began to have second thoughts. So i asked if i could have a few days to think about it and was told that i could have a 3 day reservation for me to think about it before coming down to make my registration payment. So now i'm confused, not knowing whether to learn the guitar or piano, or not learn at all. it's because i'm going to be enlisted for national service soon and i don't want to have to stop halfway. The entire course takes 5 years to finish. That's a pretty long time in my opinion.
I'm not a person who likes to make my own decisions. sometimes other people have to influence me to make them. Sometimes i have to be forced to do it. Why i never like to decide stuff is because whenever i do actually decide on something after a period of time i will start to have second thoughts. Like say buying a shirt for example, people might say i look nice in it and ask me to buy it. That might actually make me want to buy the shirt MORE than not buying it.
But at some point in out lives we all have to make our own decisions because other people won't be there for us forever now won't they?
10:13 PM