i just reassured myself that i absolutely with every single ounce of strength in my body that i...


HATE KTV'S :)

Now i know why i dont go for Kbox outings or anything else related to that. Senseless screaming for a price. Hmm.. if i wanted that i would have gone to woodbridge lol. No offence to you guys. Not that i didn't like the company but i just don't like the idea of trying to strain my vocal chords to sing when i jolly well know i can't =) .



stupid Vincent Wong. Cancelled a class and didnt bother to inform anyone. Now i have to sit in the stupid lab for 4 hours and do nothing. bahh. Bored as hell.

Work tomorrow. I'll probably be dong bar. Don't like to keep having to wash my shirt. Damn.



yesterday was super duper fun. Best night of my life. If only i had pictures. Damn. Maybe i'll get them somehow. But anyway, Happy Birthday to Niki! Haha. The staff of TCC have managed to establish a love/hate relationship with her because thats all she was shouting the entire night.

*high pitch voice*

OMG I LOVE YOU GUYS (when we surprised her with the cake)

*high pitch voice*

I HATE YOU ALL (when Matt poured water all over her)

Had a tiny little bit of vodka with some orange juice. about 10ml? haha. But it goes straight to your stomach man. Post drinking warning to myself. Never drink on an empty stomach. haha.

And my bar training has officially started. TIme passes quick while doing bar but i don't like the amount of stress. Anyway there are alot of drinks i've yet to learn. Long way more to go. haha.

Alright gotta get ready for school. Bye!



i suddenly realised what's it's like to be single again. And i have to admit that it feels great! I don't have to answer to anyone and i spend only on myself and i don't have to deal with emotional pain.

Thinking about the past, my relationship with her was good no doubt. There were happy times but those were the only things that i thought about. I didn't realise all the things i had to do to make her happy and all the time i had to spend trying to make sure that she didn't run off with another guy.

I'm someone who gets jealous really easily. So i think it's good for me to stay single until i can put aside the fact that it's a free world and we do whatever we want unless it's against the law. That includes going out with friends of the opposite sex on a 1-on-1 date.

But that aside.. i've only got two things to worry about right now. Work and Study, well three if you count money. haha.

On a lighter note, my bar training starts soon! Well actually started already but not officially.

PEOPLE, COME DOWN TO TCC@ATRIUM(PLAZA SING) IF YOU WANT TO GET POISONED BY THE DRINKS I MAKE :D



This blog has become more of a place for me to dump my feelings rather than update what's going on with my life and stuff. Like i said, there are some stuff that i don't want to say here therefore it will end up in my journal and unless you can get your hands on it i don't think you will be able to know.

In any case probably nobody reads my blog anymore. I don't even know why i continue blogging anyway. I don't even update regularly.

To Someone,

I hate you for doing this to me, you made my life a living hell after what you told me on Sunday. If you think you can sidetrack me because of what you said think again. So what if you have had more experiences with girls and know what they're thinking? Bottom line is, YOU'RE NOT A GIRL. Well of course unless you grew a freaking vagina for some unknown reason. I'd be embarrassed if i were you, having feelings from someone living in a totally different era than you. Plus you look like you're nearing 40. Even *inserts name* looks younger than you. I'm not going to follow your advice just because you told me to. Who are you to me anyway? You don't even know me. so FUCK off.


And to you,

i just want you to be happy. I want to see you smile always, because you deserve to be happy,no matter what happens. Even if i can't be the one to give you the happiness you're looking for, after all that you've been through i hope that after time passes you will soon learn to smile again. There was a version of you, a version of you before you met him, and its not the way you are now. I don't know if telling you this will help, but the only thing that can heal a broken heart... is time.


The show hasn't ended.. it was but a season finale. Don't lose hope. Things will turn out for the better. Be strong like you always have...



i don't know why i feel this way.. it's all so weird.. i mean even if i know that it's kinda impossible but at the same time i can't help but feel insecure about it.

I don't know what is this feeling inside of me that i'm having right now. I feel heartbroken before it's already happened.

I want to spill everything out here.. but i can't because then everyone will know. It'll probably go in my journal i guess. All of a sudden i feel so moodless. Like as if the whole world doesn't mean anything to me anymore.

If he really likes her... i guess it's only right for me to step aside. I'm not going to fight for something that i know i will have a high possibility of losing.

it sucks that this has to happen now... If only someone would have told me sooner...sigh..



listen to all your rants and complaints when something doesn't go your way...

sit beside you and lend you a shoulder to lean on when you're tired and want to rest...

hold your hand in both of mine and assure you that everything is going to be alright...

watch your name appear on the phone screen and pick up immediately to hear your voice...

make you smile whenever you feel like frowining...

help you to forget the past and move on to he present and future...

be someone you can look to for help whenever you need any...

be more than just a friend...

love you..... like i always have...



Things are probably never going to get better. That sucks.

I keep thinking of the worst possible scenarios but i won't do anything about it, which sucks.

I wonder if time will ever return what love stole from you.

It hurts to see you like this. And it's killing me that i can't do anything about it because i'm nobody to you, just a figure of your imagination.

If i was selfish i wouldn't support what you're trying to do right now, but... knowing that even if i was selfish it wouldn't change anything, i'd rather try my best to support it. No matter how much it kills me inside.

I've been killed once before by someone whom i waited for for 2½ years. And if history repeats itself i think i don't even want to live anymore.

Somebody just save me. Please.



when you have to look away
when you don't have much to say
thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
to hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk, with two left feet
thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
and when you're mad 'cause you lost the game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby I love you
I love you anyway

'cause heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
thats when I love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn,
the more I love,
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when I love you
when I love you
no matter what

so when you turn to hide your eyes
'cause the movie made you cry
thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
and when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when I love you
I love you, more than you know
and when you forget that we had a date
or that look you give when you show up late
baby i love you anyway, I love you anyway

'cause heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
thats when I love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn
the more I love
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when I love you
when I love you no matter what

ooohhh! oooooohh! thats when I love you
when nothing baby
nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn
the more I love
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when I love you
when I love you
no matter what
ooooooohhhh ooooooooooh!
no matter what

Thats when i love you- Aslyn

this song brings back so many good memories.... and bad ones... damn.. and yes i do listen to female singers *grin* . But only if they're really really good!




Lots of stuff to update.

- Got my Ipod Touch
- Worked for a month at TCC
- Am currently and SERIOUSLY in need of cash(feel free to donate to me :D)
- Won't be blogging much because i have too much personal stuff to say and it's in my journal
- Looking forward to 8th October.

Work is fun. So far... Read the SOP for drinks today and i only can remember ONE perfectly(i think).

I don't think i'm allowed to type it out so let's just assume that i do know ok? heh

Cheers! LOL