i really enjoyed myself on Thursday. haha. 13th December! my chance to change my life. i don't know what's going to happen but i'm going to pull out every trick in the book. I realised what i've been missing all this while.

To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may mean the world.

but what if there are two different worlds?

well, i'm really grateful that i got to live in the same one as you =)

On a lighter note, going to get a hard disk and something else for someone tomorrow at Sitex. Damn Razer for not joining Sitex this time round. I was looking forward to laying my hands on a Razer DeathAdder and annihilating everything in my path hehe.






you know i was thinking. what if i turned my life into a story? and i wrote down every little part of it? hmmm... thoughts anyone?





meet my new wicked sick sound blasting thing of godlikeness. CrossRoads MylarOne Bijou 3. this is where sound meets God. hahahahaha. Love it to bits and pieces! it came with a free amplifier as well, but i gave it to the tech geek of a sister i have. This thing really pwns. It's like zoMfG gaylike. Of course good things come at a price. heh.

Things to do this week:

-Report for CCom by Thursday
-Try not to screw up my judging
-Prepare for Thursday :)
-Juggle work and schoolwork.

Hard to do the last one. I'm kinda having trouble planning my time out evenly. Help.

watch CAREFULLY. especially the last few seconds. Really LOL


This is what you get when you work too much.


Best Restaurant prank. I really LOL-ed when i watched this

I have so many things i want to say but i just don't know how to phrase them. So many feelings all kept inside me.

Even if i do manage to wait, how long will it actually last? Is it even possible to go long term?

I can't even work without thinking of you now. Doing bar is even worse because most drinks require ____ and you're always asking me for it whenever you're thirsty.

I seriously hope i don't get thrown in bar tomorrow.

I know God doesn't create miracles, he gives opportunities for the miracles to happen. So dear God, if by some unknown way you manage to come across this i hope you can give me an opportunity to prove to her how much she means to me.

To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may mean the world :)



just reached home. just had one of the best midnight outings ever. How i wish it could happen every now and then. i love you guys. thanks for the fun time :)

i'm falling.. falling for you.
so hard and so fast that i can't stop it.
what do i do?
Accept what could happen in the future and pretend that it doesn't matter?
Or hold in my feelings and don't do anything about it?
Sigh. Love is such a complicated feeling.




I learned two important life lessons today.

-Freedom comes at a price.
-The harder you try, the harder you're going to fall.

Let's talk about the first one. Today was TCC's fifth anniversary. And they had the celebration at Atrium. Of course i was working there so i was a part of it. It was fun all the way toward the end, when they started drinking.

People started getting drunk, some lost their temper, one vomitted and another didn't want to go home.

Even though i could have chosen to drink(which i don't), i didn't because i knew very well that if i did i wouldn't be able to tell what would have become of me. I mean the mood was there no doubt. I was this close to almost downing my entire glass of champagne. But after realising that it would get me no where i went over to Louie and poured the contents of my glass into his. Seeing all of them like that, i thank my lucky stars that i don't drink. Getting drunk is not something i would want to be proud of. I wouldn't want to wake up the next morning on the street with no recollection of whatever happened the night before.

So what if drinking helps to relieve stress? So what if you're feeling upset and want to drink away your sorrows? I don't see any link between the two. It's like saying you want to rob a bank because you want to impress a girl from your school. IT MAKES NO FRIGGIN SENSE.

Frankly speaking i feel that people who do something else because of how they feel are total cowards. They have the gall to create the mess for themselves but don't have any to face up to reality. You messed it up, you clean it. You don't spill water on the carpet and leave it there to go have lunch hoping that after a period of time it'll dry up. Sure it will dry up eventually, but the stain will be there to haunt you forever unless you do something to remove it permanently.

Second thing i learned, the harder you try, the harder you fall.

I see him trying so hard... until a point where it almost makes me want to laugh. Sure, he has access to the resources that i don't. But at this point of time, i'm sure you're not what she's looking for. Try as hard as you might, i'm no one to judge. But i can tell that she's just trying to be nice by not putting you down, giving you the respect that you deserve. You smoke and drink, which is a past that she's trying to put behind her. How is she going to be able to do that when you're constantly doing it? Don't smoke or drink in front of her? Sure, but for how long?

You don't understand her, because you can't think on the same level as her. You will never understand how she feels, because you have never gone through what she has. I'm not proud to say that i know exactly how she feels because i've been through the same scenearios, but right now she needs to get her life in order before she moves on to other things. And you're probably ignorant of all that, with just one hope at the back of your mind that she will choose you over everyone else on the planet.

i don't know if you will see this, and if you do and are 110% sure that you won't want to be more than friends, please don't give him the hope that it's possible. Make it clear to him right here and now. Because if you're going to drag this and reject him in the end you're just going to add one more problem for yourself. Because you see him on a day to day basis and it will be awkward. I'm just hoping that you will do this to give yourself one less problem. I know it's hard to cope with studies and your personal life, so don't go drag your work into it. I'll be here if you need to talk about anything. Just give me a call day or night, i love knocking sense into people =)



sometimes i don't even know why i bother to care for people who don't even want to make their own lives easier for themselves. I show concern as a friend, not expecting anything in return. Just hoping that maybe you will do whats best for yourself and not make rash decisions which will lead to regret later on.

But you have your own life to live.

Who am i to care right? No one asked me to care in the first place, why am i such a busybody? Can't i just mind my own business? It's your life, you do as you please.

Fine.



attempted to do foam art with chocolate sauce.

attempt 1



attempt 2.



well the first attempt looks neater than the second because i was kinda rushing for time on the second attempt. But i'll improve. :D

And i managed to do precise layering for my Roca Almondo.



Top layer would be the milk foam, then the espresso, followed by the milk and a tiny layer of almond syrup and lastly the caramel sauce. So proud of myself lol. And if you think it's easy i'd like to see you try.

And i bought a new pair of shoes today! I wanted to get the AC Milan jacket as well because the color combination was uber godlike. Carnage colors(red and black). My favourite combination. But i passed because the shoes weren't that cheap either. But still it was worth it because the shoes cost over $200 and i gotthem at almost half price of $120. :D And here they are.



Tales of the barista to be continued! :)



sometimes i wonder what i should be doing with my life. Is this what i really want? I want to pretend that nothing remotely big happened and just carry on with what i do every day.

But.. i'm very bad at keeping my emotions bottled up inside. Maybe i should just refer to my colleagues as colleagues and let them stay that way. Nothing more, nothing less. I work with them, smile at them, joke with them and nothing more than that. No more outings, drinking whatsoever. Any celebrations that require my presence i will not be there. Because ultimately these are people whom i can't be friends with forever. I can't see myself being in contact with them 10 years from now.

Call me self centered, selfish or whatever you please. Things have already gotten so complicated over a period of two months. All because of one person.

Sure, my actions may seem like i have feelings for her. But unlike you i don't go and complicate things. I don't put any form of pressure on her. She's already having such a hard time coping with her studies and work and her personal life at the same time, will it kill you to at least let her get her affairs in order before doing anything? God knows what the hell you told her, but i stand by it that i only show concern for her as a friend. Nothing more. You affected both our lives by trying to be a third party and spreading false rumours about the whole situation. I don't know why you can't just fucking grow up and think about others before youself you dumb motherfucker...