I posted it on facebook and now i'm posting it here. I want the whole world to know that i made the biggest mistake of my life.

This note is not for anybody to pass on. This is a note of apology. I'm going to tell everyone and anyone who wants to see this that I, Brandon Wong , am the scum of this Earth and i deserve to die for hurting my friends Glen and Niki. Feel free to hurl insults at me because i highly recommend it.

On 3rd March 2009 I went to a chalet with both of them at Sentosa organized by one of our colleagues who shall remain unnamed. When the clock struck 12, i disappeared without a trace because i wanted to be alone. A very self-centered and selfish move on my part. The rest of the night followed through as it was but i wasn't myself and it's not their fault at all. Because i never did realize their part of the story.

On the day of my birthday we had to check out of the chalet. Till that moment until we parted ways i neither received any present of any kind, nor was a celebration held to commemorate the day. Being the insensitive asshole that i was i only thought on my part and told myself that they didn't care that it was even my birthday and to even get me a gift despite me doing the complete opposite for their birthdays in the past year.

Awhile later i sent Niki a message spilling out everything that i had kept inside. At that point i didn't consider anyone's feelings but mine so without thinking i sent it, finally feeling better inside. But what i didn't know was that i brought a world of hurt to my two close friends whom i treasured. I let my feelings get the better of me and it hurt the two people who matter the most to me.

The truth was, i only thought for myself and not about them. Glen had insufficient time and capital because he had three birthdays to celebrate including mine and also due to his exams just finishing the week before. Niki had her pay delayed and was also short on capital. Not even considering the above factors i went ahead and blasted the both of them with everything that i felt inside. Not knowing that it would hurt them.

Those who are close with me will know that i sometimes tend to think of myself before others which happens on occasion. And that i say things that sounds ok to me but hurts others it some way or another.

I just want to say that over the past two days i have been the biggest jackass and the lousiest friend to the both of them and i do not deserve them as friends. But i'm not going to let them go no matter what.

Glen and Niki, you guys have shown me what true friends really are. After Glen scolded me in an entire train of people(which i totally deserve), i came out of the station and teared just before i called Niki to apologize. I know i hurt the both of you in ways nobody can imagine. I love you guys and nothing will ever make me give up on this friendship. Hopefully you can find it in your heart to put aside what has happened today and yesterday and start from scratch. I really don't want to lose either of you because of some petty temper that i was throwing.

I am truly sorry and i hope that both of you can forgive me. This friendship means more to me than life itself and without either of you life will never ever be the same.